disappointment

i've been on this online dating website for like 2 years and have not really had much luck. my record number of dates with one person is 4. i think the dating pool in my area is kind of slim- lots of illiterate folk - and people from the big city don't want to have a relationship with someone who lives an hour away. so i'd pretty much stopped using the site and my membership was set to expire at the end of this month. then i got an email from someone who seemed really interesting, and right up my alley. we went out. then we went out again. then, we went out 2 more times. all in less than 2 weeks. i sent him an email, and then, i didn't hear from him again. it's been several days and i am resigning myself to the fact that i've been cut. was it because i didn't give it up? was it something else? did he just realize he wasn't that into me? if so, fine. but i just wish these guys would have the decency to say "sorry, it's not going to work out. nice meeting you." or even just "sorry, it's not going to work out." it was only 4 dates; i suppose I shouldn't have any expectations of politeness. i should also probably practice what i preach and do the same thing. recently there was a guy i went on 2 dates with and decided I was all set, but i wasn't really into having that conversation with him, because i'd had it a few years ago and it got ugly.

so i don't have my hopes up that i'll ever hear from this guy again, but if I do, I'll have to take it as it comes.

it's clear that i'm not feeling very energetic - i can't be bothered to capitalize the letter "i".