Off the Market

The house, not me. I'm still looking. Hahahaa.

Panic Setting In

I just spent the past half hour looking at the apartment listings for Boston, Cambridge, JP, etc. on Craigslist. It's sad. Things are really expensive and don't really look so great. I'm really worried that the house is going to sell, and I'm going going to have to rush to find an apartment, and I'll end up in a roach-infested dump with on-street parking and the cats will be forced to stay inside for the rest of their lives. That would really suck.

Is there another way to be happy? Maybe I should take the house off the market and get a roommate. Worcester's not so bad, right? The house is clean, it's nice, it's safe, and I still get to work from home 2 days a week even if I don't move. What more do I really want? If I move to Boston, car insurance will go up, expenses will go up, and traffic will be heavier. I don't know. If the house had sold right away I wouldn't be doubting myself so much but now that I've had time to think about it, it's easy to be wishy-washy, or think maybe I should change my mind. I wish I knew the answer. I sort of have a feeling I'm going to be here for a while though. I definitely don't want to move in the winter. So... my small readership... comment if you have any advice. OR are looking for a place to live and aren't allergic to cats. ;) I have 2 empty bedrooms, DSL, and a washer and dryer.

Kal Penn

I have an unexpected obsession with Kal Penn, one of the co-stars of Harold and Kumar go to White Castle. I think he's cute, and he has a nice voice. Lucky me, he also has a bit part in "Love Don't Cost A Thing", which is on right now. What a cutie. But this movie, Love Don't Cost a Thing. It sucks. It's a remake of Can't Buy Me Love, which was much better.

So, I was browsing IMDB and GREAT NEWS!!!! They're making a sequel, due out in 2008!! I can't wait! I don't smoke, anything, but I thought the first one was hilarious!

Also starring John Cho, who was in that crazy movie about smart rich kids in California who killed someone or something... kind of disturbing but worth seeing.

more disappointment

Last week was a week of disappointments and lucky for me it's running over into today. Yay.

Funny how I just want to change one thing about my life (where I live) and I finally make that decision during the slowest real estate quarter in 16 yrs. So I resigned myself to waiting it out and I was okay with that.

Then, I met someone I thought I had a connection with and all I got out of that was a hangover and a hickey. I thought, hmm, maybe I don't need to focus on moving. Maybe it's just that something needs to change and if it's in the dating arena instead of the real estate market, that's okay. As long as it's something. But that didn't work out.

Then I thought maybe I'd have to revisit where I live based on where I work. And then THAT didn't work out. So now, here I am. Still living here; still single; still in the same job. Still (need I bother even saying it?) bored.

Oh well. At least I'm losing weight from all the anxiety. Yes, every cloud has a silver lining. Here's another: I get to work from home 2 days a week even though I haven't moved yet. That is a huge silver lining.

the day is looking up

I just got my haircut and I feel much better now. Had a great chat with the hairdresser and am feeling good.

disappointment

i've been on this online dating website for like 2 years and have not really had much luck. my record number of dates with one person is 4. i think the dating pool in my area is kind of slim- lots of illiterate folk - and people from the big city don't want to have a relationship with someone who lives an hour away. so i'd pretty much stopped using the site and my membership was set to expire at the end of this month. then i got an email from someone who seemed really interesting, and right up my alley. we went out. then we went out again. then, we went out 2 more times. all in less than 2 weeks. i sent him an email, and then, i didn't hear from him again. it's been several days and i am resigning myself to the fact that i've been cut. was it because i didn't give it up? was it something else? did he just realize he wasn't that into me? if so, fine. but i just wish these guys would have the decency to say "sorry, it's not going to work out. nice meeting you." or even just "sorry, it's not going to work out." it was only 4 dates; i suppose I shouldn't have any expectations of politeness. i should also probably practice what i preach and do the same thing. recently there was a guy i went on 2 dates with and decided I was all set, but i wasn't really into having that conversation with him, because i'd had it a few years ago and it got ugly.

so i don't have my hopes up that i'll ever hear from this guy again, but if I do, I'll have to take it as it comes.

it's clear that i'm not feeling very energetic - i can't be bothered to capitalize the letter "i".

No specific topic

Although you wouldn't know it from looking at my hands, I am now a person who gets her nails done. Granted, I wait weeks in between manicures, so all growth I was so proud of after the first week has been slowly picked off while sitting on boring, useless, interminable conference calls. So, I work to pay for the cleanup of the nails that work makes me pick off. It's a cycle that needs to be broken.

Yesterday, I saw a guy who looked like Sloth from The Goonies. I wanted to stop and take a picture but the battery in the camera was dead. Plus, that would've been really, really rude.

High on my list of chores to take care of tonight: cleaning the litter box. For those people who are jealous of single people: the grass is not any greener on this side. There's nobody to share the crappy chores with, cooking for one blows, and there's just no way in hell I can really make use of all 8 rooms of this house. There are weeks when I don't even use the half-bathroom, and then I pay the cleaners $60 to clean a clean toilet. Lately, I've been wondering if it's karma, the reason that I'm still single. I can pinpoint at least 2 actions that may be coming back to bite me right in the ass.

Also annoying: The only time I feel like blogging is when I'm utterly cranky, so now it just seems like my life is one big ball of misery. It's not, really, most of the time, but I am horribly bored.

Alright, I'm off to read and get to sleep early. I have a 530 wakeup ahead of me.

Cute Sheep

We saw this sheep at the Woodstock fair. I wish this video was a little sharper, but basically, it's just chewing and chewing and chewing. they wear those straitjacket things after they've been shorn, to keep the fur clean. is it fur? what is it before it's wool?

is it pms or am i just happy to be here?

It's a sad sad day when I cry in the car on the way to work. Do I hate my job? [Yes.] Did I get about 3 hours of sleep last night, total, and I was really tired this morning? [Yes.] Am I sick of Folger's coffee and am psyched that the second giant tub of coffee from Sam's is almost gone? [Yes!]

So for now, all I have are the emotions of PMS and the low back pain. I'm coming up on bloating, which is really awesome, and the actual event. Oh, I hope it's here in time for the weekend.

By the way, I'm in a pretty shitty mood.

Local Color

A bee in my garden

Different bee, same garden

Striped Tomatoes

Who'd have thought Pleasant St. could look so beautiful?

At the Fair

I went to the Woodstock fair this weekend, inCT. This is before we entered. The bangs definitely need a trim